this is it .. i'm not blogging anymore

It's funny when i read someone's blog. She's worried about the relationship coz they 'probably may not meet up for 5 months' if they always have different schedules and off days.

Imagine Singapore aint that small. Besides it's still relatively affordable to call or msg here.

Look at me. I wont even be breathing the same air as boyfriend. I definately wont be seeing him for 5 months and not forgetting the next 2 years will only be spent on weekends meetup.

If there's a will, there's a way.

I'm not worried about us because i know we should be. Despite everything, you are still the one dearest to me. 5 months will not be a test for us, but a chance to learn more about ourselves and what we want out of the relationship. I know it'll be better for us as we'll learn how to appreciate each other and learn how to understand each other.

Heh, i dont even know what i'm talking anymore.

Had a great evening out with darling. Havent felt like such a princess in such a while due to projects and such. To darling: i'm proud of you today =) i'm really glad you took this step to overcome your fears and i appreciate you for that.

Thanks for the lovely dinner and company at tonkichi, for the lovely notebook which i shouldnt have coverted due to the price and choosing a book with me at borders.

The time at the void deck was precious to me. Dont think too much k? i'll only be gone 138 days. Time will pass faster than you know.

I love all of you =)

Realised i havent blogged in a while =D

Last wednesday.
For the first time in 3 years i actually stayed through a paper, a 2 hour at that. Would have left earlier if not for the teacher who didnt spot me till after the other invigilator said no leaving the examination hall. Dang.

Headed to Suntec's Marche with zoo peeps and had a great lunch followed by shopping session =D. Got played out by my mom and ended up not going to the gym. Made me lug that heavy bad all the way dang.

Last friday.
Met up with radon people. Sally, Wei Qi, Kai Wei, Jackson, Ivan. Thanks to Xue Yun, Aw and his girlfriend who came just to see me and teddy who tried to come =) So touched. Anyway despite the group being small, it was fun and it made me reminise about the time we were together.

Thanks Wen Qi for making me join the camp that time. It was truely memorable and i really didnt regret joining them. In fact it made me motivated to join again. Hopefully we can all be in one group again. =)

Monday.
Visited grandma after collecting ticket. Managed to catch some auditions of Project Superstar. Whilst there were some that werent that bad, there were some that were terrible. Hats off to this guy with some disability but it made me feel proud for him for coming out and trying. I hope they show him on tv, i think he deserves that applause.

Today.
Met Manda and serene for an evening of dinner, shopping and chatting. I'll miss you girls loads, it's been ages since we went out like this.

In 6 more days i'll be off to China for 5 months culture exchange. It'll definately be an eye-opener.

to darling: i'm really glad we managed to talk things out for once today. now that we know our stand let's work together to making this work.

Thanks you all who remembered my birthday:
1) manda and serene for being the first and giving me that lovely La Senza voucher
2) Azlina for the lovely earrings and the early greeting
3) Liping for the early by one day greeting
4) Afidah
5) Jia Hui
6) Mimi xiong xiong
7) Tabi
8) Stella
9) Kah Ong
10) Chris
11) Wen Qi
12) Xiao Toot
13) Geraldine
14) Ivan Lua
15) Sally
16) Ivan Sim

And not forgetting my dearest boy who came all the way to the bottom of my flat at 11pm last night to sing me a birthday song and shaking his butt despite the cars roaming by =) really sweet of you darling. No wonder you knew when i went into my room haha.

Thanks also for that bouquet of lily again, it's still smelling nice in my room haha.

Had a great dinner with my family last night at Spagetties@Marina. My dad got my brother and i a magarita each =D

I saw some nice clothes online but no money =(

Haha, my brother agreed to sponsor one of the blouse yay =D

Dinner at NYDC wasnt bad haha i think i ordered wrongly again lol.

Someone please buy the Kwon Sang Woo ticket from me!

I really dont understand why taiwanese are so happy going on a variety show letting everyone guess who their other half is. How can they stand their girlfriend/boyfriend hugging and "kissing" another especially in front of their parents? What some people would do for fame.

Anyway thanks boyfriend for the bouquet of lily =D Cant believe that you actually remembered and they sure smell good.

Met up with secondary school people yesterday. Many thanks to Wei Jing, Wen Hong, Ivan, Leonard, Azlina, Dennis, Jing yang and Matt for coming. I think it felt nice meeting up after 3 years and chatting like adults we'll be. It felt good and comforting and it was nice to know that past differences were put aside and as i told Ivan, we used to be kids haha.

Anyway i'm off to shower. Tata all.

Life Path 7 (7, 16/7, 25/7, 34/7)

The Life Path 7 suggests that you entered this plane with a gift for investigation, analysis, and keen observation. You are a thinker of the first order. You evaluate situations very quickly, and with amazing accuracy. As a result, you are thorough and complete in your work, the perfectionist who expects everyone else to meet a high standard of performance, too.

A Life Path 7 person is a peaceful and affectionate soul. But you guard your connection to people carefully. It's easy for you to detect deception and recognize insincere people, and you avoid them. You aren't one to have a wide circle of friends, but once you accept someone as a friend, it's for life. It's as if you must get to know someone a lot better before you allow the wall surrounding you to be penetrated. Chances are you are a very charming and refined individual with great poise and a quick wit. Nonetheless, there is an exclusiveness about you. You probably aren't a very social person. Your reserve is often taken to be aloofness, but actually, it's not that at all. It is merely a cover up for your basic feeling of insecurity. There's no rush, It takes time for you to warm up to new friends. Clubs and organizations hold little interest for you; you are not a joiner.

You actually like being alone and away from the hustle and bustle of modern life. In many ways, you would have fit in better in much earlier times when the pace of life was less hectic. You need a good deal of quiet time to be with your own inner thoughts and dreams. You dislike crowds, noise, distractions, and confusion.

The overwhelming strength of the number 7 is reflected in the depth of thinking that is shown; you will garner knowledge from practically every source that you find. Intellectual, scientific, and studious, you don't accept a premise until you have dissected the subject and arrived at your own independent conclusion.

This is a very spiritual number and it often denotes a sort of spiritual wisdom that becomes apparent at a fairly early age. A built in inner guide providing a strong sense of intuition may set you up as being a law unto yourself. Whatever spiritual position you take, whether traditional or bizarre, you will cling to it with fervor. Once you have decided an issue, it is almost impossible to get you to revisit the question. Adaptability is not your style, and change for you is a rarity.
You rely heavily on your experiences and your intuition, rather than accepting advice from someone. Your hunches usually prove to be very accurate, and knowing this, you follow the directions they seem to guide.

In the most negative use of the 7 energies, you can become very pessimistic, lackadaisical, quarrelsome, and secretive. A Life Path 7 individual who is not living life fully and gaining through experiences, is a hard person to live with because of a serious lack of consideration for others. There is such a negative attitude. Indeed, operating on the negative side of the 7 can produce a very selfish and spoiled individual and living with one can be a challenge. This may be why some 7s actually prefer living alone. If you have any of the negative traits they are very difficult to get rid of because you tend to feel that the world really does owe you a living or that in some way you are not being fairly treated.

Fortunately, the negative 7 is not the typical 7, at least not without some mitigating positive traits. This number is one that seems to have some major shifts from highs to lows. Stability in feelings may be elusive for you.

A million thanks to serene and manda for La Senza vouchers. =D Now with me buying myself a perfume who's gonna get me the billabong bikini and fund my shopping/eating trips?Haha

Some how i'm starting to wonder if i made the correct decisions. 5 months, it isnt long yet it isnt short.

Still change is the only thing that is constant. We have to be brave and courages to venture out before we can be one step above others therefore i believe my choice is right.

As said by our director, the world is our oyster but the pearl is still Singapore. I know that this trip out will be one for me to learn how to be independant without my parents and hopefully gain my parents trust so that they wont control me as much anymore. Little do they realise that it's due to them being too overprotective that i cant be compared to others.

Believe.