Visited uncle today. So glad to see that he's happy there. =D The smile on his face when he told us about his meeting with the MP. His face lighted up when he told us that the MP told him that he's strong despite his age and when MP gave him a hug.

My dad is seriously out of his mind. Suddenly told us that he wants to get a dog while we were heading for dinner. He even dared to say that he'll give away the chinchillas just for the dog. Hello? Are you the one taking care of the chinchillas? You were the one who abruptly brought them home when i was in secondary 4 and despite protest from me (slightly) and mom, you bought another pair just because you and kor will "take care" of them.

Much as i'll want a dog do you think it's fair to say that you'll give them chinchillas away? Do you care what i feel? Having trained baby from young do you think i dont treat him as my child?

Please think before you say or act. At your age you should know better. In this family no one else but me deserves to say i want another pet because i'm the only one to take care of them. Please reflect how you will take care of them when i'm away for 5 months. I dont want to come back and see all gone.

My bruises from ice skating are still around =( but still i'm glad that i picked it up on my own. =D

Back to work.

There's this new show on channel 8 about palnning events for your loved ones.

My birthday is coming up you know. And i could do with a nice celebration before going suzhou. *hint hint*

Haha, just joking, but for those interested, here's the website.
http://ch8.mediacorptv.com/around8/announcements/view/792/1/.html

Exams'ss on 25 & 30 aug. Sian, didnt want to spend my birthday studying. Still i highly doubt there'll be any celebrations planned. I'm envious of those who have friends who remember and plan surprises for them.

Oh well.

By the way. 10 days isnt enough to say my goodbyes and pack my bag!!!! oh man, starting to wonder if it is a correct choice. Starting to dread the day.

For some unknown reason, my stomach cramps decided to give me a particularly hard time when i was about to get ready for school. Went back to sleep after talking to boyfriend.

The main thing for the day was that he came all the way from Changi Hospital just to get me lunch *beams* Just felt so xing fu. Even my brother cooked noodles to bring to his ex so why cant someone get me lunch especially since i felt so weak? Haha, anyway it was good not having to cook.

Dinner at NUS was terrible, but for some reason, my stomach aint hurting as much now. Hope i wont be saying this too fast *crosses fingers*

Cant wait for wed =D

My baby decided to pay me a visit the previous night. Not boyfriend, but my chinchilla lol. I still remembered i thought i was dreaming when something furry was by leg. The moment i pushed it away i realised for a moment it could be one of my chinchillas. Startled i quickly got up and turned on my lights. True enough my baby was at the foot of my bed. Thank goodness i didnt pushed him down.

One thing for sure by then i knew i wasnt dreaming as i remembered i even put on my specs before identifying him and heading out to put him back in his cage.

My theory is that he got out and wanted to go home but was unable to thus he came to find me but the question is how he got on my bed?

Really Bu Ke Shi Yi. Was really amazed the whole of yesterday. Maybe as Manda said, since i took care of him from young he probably recognized my smell and came looking for me.

Anyway DPD presentation's over YAY!!! Was so worried i'll go out of point or Desmond Lim would ask me something that i cant answer. Thankfully i think i did a good job. It was quie reassuring to see him nodding away when i said some facts or answered him.

I still remember him asking me if i wanted to start when there was only 8 other classmates. Shocking. Was abit distracted when the others came one by one but hey it's their loss if they didnt see my presentation =D haha just joking. Luckily my short 'clip' was interesting to some =).

Back to work.

Thanks my sweet boy for that one hour of fun yesterday =D

Went prawning (fishing = catch fish therefore prawning = catch prawn) haha that's his theory. Anyway felt abit frustrated due to lack of sleep and the sun while we walked around unsure of where to go or what to do before we finally got things right.

Had fish cake as bait and as neither of us prawned before we had a few trail and error before he caught the first prawn. =) sheer luck.

Anyway while it was still stuck on the rod i was wondering how on earth we were going to get it out and ta-da it dropped on the floor. The next think i know the prawn was crawling on land. Torn between fascination and freaking out i wondered how we were going to get into the net when he used his slipper to turn the prawn to it's side. While screaming and thinking of ways to catch the prawn the guy in charge came over to help us. This being a tall and well built guy with lots of tatoos, haha he looked scarier than he is.

Sadly that was our only catch of the day. Many time we (even me) nearly caught the prawn when it dropped just at the last moment. Overall a major eventful day haha, so high from it.

Happy 6 months darling =) Pirates of the Caribbean is so totally cool. Just love spending the day with you.

Had a sudden realisation today. I think i'm getting jaded. I cant help but want to eat at restaurants, shop as and when i want and not think about money. I feel sad that i do feel disappointed that we cant eat something good as we both simply cannot afford it. I hate it when people can tell me they spend tens and hundreds of dollars in a few hours without batting an eyelid. Sometimes not having that extra cash isnt within out means.

I want to pamper my boy, buy him things, have him eat something good but it just isnt the case. I hate it that he has to survive on bread just to buy me something or let me eat something good.

I'm sorry i felt disappointed that you had to go just now and i didnt mean to think why your friends cant be more understanding - that you needed to send me home. Then again, i wonder if they think why cant i be more understanding - that you need to spend more time with them. I wonder if they feel as if i'm taking you away from them.

Sigh, how i wish i'll stop feeling so unreasonable.

Who ever said life was a bed of roses ws obviously lying.

I dont seem to know who i am anymore.

Such a depressing day.

Even the 49/60 for French and that sinful bar of chocolate didnt help.

After almost 19 years of my life i finally realised what you thought of me. To you i'm nothing more than a cheap lying whore isnt it. Thank you for letting me know what you really think of me. I dont have any redeeming qualities do i? To you i'm nothing but someone you force to have dinner with just because no one else is free, i never seem to do anything right be it mop the floor, sweep the floor or wash toilet.

I thought you understood me better than this. To think i used to think you were the best mom around despite you being so controlling.

And now i'm at fault for staying around during weekends? Damnit. Doesnt mean i dont ask to go out means i go gallivanting during the week and skipping all lessons. I dont go out during weekdays just to spend time with you and he's also having his training for race. Weekdays i always stay in school to do my work while waiting for him to finish work and the moment we meet he sends me home.

Frankly i dont understand what am i doing here. If there's any consolation you should have aborted me years ago. Wait it isnt too late for you to disown me now.

Have you consider the reprocussions when you said all those you did? Am i really such a cheap slut in your eyes. Dont you dare look down on boyfriend. I dont think you married any better. If anything they'll probably turn out the same. If anything blame it on yourself.

Whatever.

Haven't been updating much due to laziness. Nonetheless last night or rather early this morning was really eventful.

Woke up about 1+ as it was too freaking hot to sleep, kep the fan circulating at me and was about to fall into a not-so-deep slumber when i was awoken by my mom who grabbed on to my window grills.

"Wah, look at all the smoke" Seriously, i was still half asleep and no idea what my mom uttered so i followed her around the house before finding out that i was supposed to look at the smoke. Just when i just about thought i saw the 'smoke' a loud "BOMB" sound rang through my ears and i realised, i was looking at the wrong direction. lol.

Anyway after checking all other big windows, we concluded that we cant see anything and my mom had this inspiration of the small window at our rooms. The sight wasnt pretty, this truck (i dont know how to name it) was on fire and there were firemen trying to hose it down. The first thought was to call new paper. lol. But my mom figured that someone would probably beat us to it.

After witness that sight my mom chased me to sleep in that smoky room of mine. Man, it was as bad as having the haze in my room, pity the other folks below. Anyway i couldnt get to sleep after all that andrenaline when i thought "damn i should have videod it down"

Finally managed to convince myself to sleep when i heard someone opening the door and after a while saw my dad. No wonder i didnt see him around when i was catching the action with my mom.

Managed to catch a few winks before i was woken up by the heavy rain. Damn, someone just didnt want me to sleep last night. No thanks to my dear brother who was awake but stuck in his room, it was up to me to close all the windows in the house properly. By then it was already 5+ and i needed to be awake by 630 -.-

So didnt want to wake up when boyfriend called but dragged myself up nonetheless. Was so tired by the time i reached bedok i wanted to cry and therefore decided to skip lecture to sleep at his place.

OB! i got 25.5/30 for my mid sem!!! coolness! If only i had realised that the answer to one of the question was in the mcq i would have gotten 27.5/30. Damn. Still not bad la =)

okay, much crapping this post. Shall stop now.