happy birthday to sherrie n junior .. n tabi .. here's for a birthdya wish for u too .. tho it's due tmr ..

sherrie's party was gr8 .. hope u liked e cake strawberries n whipped cream .. haha ..i so sux at charades .. i know ..sry lar .. haha ..

met manda to do e cake yest .. it was okay ..haha . not bad for first timer lar .. but think e cake prob wasnt cool enough ..

prob goin m'sia next wk .. if so .. sry christy ..wanted to help u work .. but now c how okie ...so dont need to slp le lor .. go e day aft camp .. come bk juz for camp ..

manda ..hope we can go wild wild wet .. c how k .. serene .. where hav u been? ..haha .. so long nv c u le ..

was lyin in bed last nite ..somehow ..couldnt slp ..mayb coz of pa's snores .. anyway .. somehow juz tot bout e past .. e first time i was lied to ... not da usual white lies which u can forgive .. but somethin tt really hurt me ..

rgps ... back den we were next to henry park so we knew each other ..this girl .. one of my ex best frien told me one day tt this guy liked me .. wrote letters to me ..i was quite naive ba .. now still ... i believed her .. not coz a guy 'liked' me .. but coz she was my frien .. but somehow i found out the truth one day .. at such a young age .. you would hav tot i would learn my lesson .. guess i din ..

prob as wat jimmy said .. i'm v innocent .. i would say i'm more naive and stupid ba ... am i wrong? .. cant this world juz be abit more simplier .. i do blame my parents for being too protective at times .. but i would rather .. i rather not open my eyes to c how terrifying the world outside can be ..

anyway .. juz lay there thinkin .. thinking of how stupid i've been my whole life .. i donno .. i dont want to grow up anymore .. dont wan to be forced to know things i rather not know ..

~mummy pls help me .. i'm hurtin n i wanna hurt no more

had so much fun wif tabi n rach today .. got approached by BHI ppl twice today .. pls leave me alone .. i'm already wif e company .. but i wouldnt mind if u are from Blu Inc .. haha ..

anyway bought a skirt ..nail polish n bracelet at far east today .. set me back by $60 .. hav to save up le .. chilled out at taka's coffee club aft all e walkin .. really went one big round .. coz started out at taka .. den to cine's food court before headin to tangs den far east n back to taka ..

photos are up le ..so check it out

so long nv work split le .. doin dishwash made it worse .. back was achin aft 3 hrs in there .. quite fun today tho ..so many cute kids .. new p/t today .. man is he cute or wat .. but alas .. he's taken .. there was this cutomer .. he's so hot .. but aiya .. customer .. cant possibly ask for his no ..

achin all over now but muz still go to e gym tmr

christy said smthin today .. she wished she was like me .. rather live in my own world .. not knowin things .. she's quite rite .. everytime she talkes bout me .. she's quite spot on ..

kor's in camp again .. but din get to say bye except when they called me when i was nappin

gonna hav supper now .. ciaos

went shoppin wif mom at bugis yest ... quite fruitful .. bought 2 pairs of shoes n a skirt ... suprised tt mom let me try e short skirts .. but alas .. it din look nice .. but still it was a pleasant surprise

finally c kor aft so long .. he look so cute .. haha .. love his arm ..so nice n muscular ..but not too chunky .. juz e right size .. botak boy .. haha

work was ok today .. glad to finish early .. was real tired .. would hav went to watch movie or cycle but .. ended up lazin at home ...

givin away one of e babies tmr .. will miss it so much ..

~y do i feel so lonely now?

hated e job .. can barely say past excuse me n kena rejected .. sigh .. din help tt i was so tall .. e other scouters say coz they may find it intimidating .. cant help if they are shorter wat .. *mean thoughts* .. whaha .. oh well .. onli got 6 names .. could hav gotten more but .. haiz .. rather stick to waitressin .. aft all got my increment le .. den gonna ask them to put me down more often

kor's comin back tonite =] .. cant wait to see him botak ..whaha ..

givin away babies soon .. sad hope halle gives birth again soon ..

ciaos all

got a part time job for tmr .. talent scouting .. hope can get 10 names in an hr at least .. all u chio bu's .. come down n find me .. let me earn some money ... haha .. wonder if can call ppl up save e trouble ... smart casual .. hmm

cant wait for camp ... glad tt my poem helped to tell some stories =]

loved my poem? .. i did .. haha .. whether it's related to me annot .. up to u to decide lar .. whaha ..

gerald i know u'll read my blog pls take away my pictures from ur friendster n e friendster blog .. i'm askin nicely .. pls ..

thinkin of takin up wei ye's offer .. not jkin this time .. if it's on my terms ..

tt's bout it for now .. cya all

the shine is gone from her eyes
bounce lost from her steps
as she drags her feet arnd
she nearly bang into things
as her eyes nv leave e floor

her eyes glazed as she stares out of the window
brimmed wif tears as she rides down to town
a heavy heart
an empty space
nothing in her mind

you'll c her smile
but do u c her cry
you hear her laugh
but do you hear her heart .. shattering .. into a million pieces

she lits a cigratte
her first in years
watchin
waiting
wondering where the little girl have gone to

she exhales deeply
watching the white fumes form around her
slumped in the chair
losing .. the little girl ...
forever ..

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on a lighter note .. all pics .. tho v little taken at sentosa will be updated soon .. had fun tt day .. wont elaborate now ..

briefin was quite .. fun .. mainly coz of e games .. cant wait for 3rd may

sup on tues .. wish me luck all ..

no one said breakin up would be easy .. this had to be hardest ..

anyway .. concluded tt zhang wei isnt tt bad actually .. cant seem to dislike some one perpetually i find .. some how will always find tt they are ok .. y is it always this way???

found out tt i literally screwed my paper .. think i lost at least 50 marks .. how pathetic can tt be .. mixed up my fixed n variable costin .. inbound n outbound .. n if i done e last qn i prob could hav passed .. grr .. stupid calculations ..

wonder if i can go on fri .. hope so .. shoppin on my own tmr ... hate tt idea ..

~some things are best left unsaid .. unheard n unknown ..

went out wif manda n serene today .. met so many ppl .. miss goin out wif u girls .. boiught a bikini to wear on fri .. if i'm goin .. now left slippers n shorts n mayb a tee .. hope fri will be on for me ..

~u asked if i will be sad ... i would ..

revision class on wed .. let's learn french.. lalala~

~wonder if i can go out on fri ..

so hate my life .. juz wanna scream .. sleepin n never wakin up seems like such a good idea now.....

~xiang hui dao gua qu ..

helped grandma move hse today .. OMG!!!!! ..so freakin messed up .. they brought all e small stuff first den e large items .. by den totally no space lor .. aunt grandma n pa were like complainin tt they shld bring e bigger stuff first .. but oh well .. wonder how they gonna slp lor .. totally no space ... e movers are those tt are given 2nd chance de ... act they quite nice lar .. coz e 3rd batch of stuff was to be supervised by me mah .. so stand downstairs .. den aft everythin i had to wait for e piano .. den they started talkin to me .. friendly lar .. got one cute one .. whaha . but out of my league lar .. lolx .. would hav talked more if not for mom n dad .. had to lug stuff up ..

kor was so cute when we talked ..haha .. miss his presense ..

mom said smthin tt had me thinkin .. there was this little girl ...when mom saw her ..she asked me where tt little girl in me went to .. i used to be such a happy girl .. i'll hardly be sad or moody .. but now i seem to be moody more ..

wonder where tt little girl in me went ..seem to be fallin deeper n deeper in to e little black hole tt i saw when i was in sec 2 .. e one wif no return .. i dont want tt to happen but ...i oso donno anymore .. knowledge is power .. power kills... so knowledge kills?.. donno wat i'm talkin bout .. i wanna go on a long break ..

haiz .. kor juz went in today .. n juz got my results .. freakin hell .. failed tto .. stupid zhang wei ... cant even giv me a pass .. argh .. she so cant teach .. she so cant speak eng ..ask her a qn she goes a big round but doesnt giv an ans .. so y e hell is she e head !!!! .. if i fail biz stat or econs i wont feel so bad .. but aarghhhhhhhhhh tto .. don wan to hear her teach french again ... she cant teach .. she doesnt giv proper notes .. she doesnt even do a proper revision ... n coz of her i have to take supp .. thanks ar ..

print mgt : B
Commskills2 : B
macroecons : C
TTOpns : F
Bizstat : C
Psy : D+

at least mom n dad din scold tt much but hate their naggin ... feelin so damn blue now due to so many things ..arghhhhhh .. so wanna scream .. spoil my mood onli .. cant shop in peace ..

visited e army camp today wif kor's gf .. ok lar ..she's quite nice .. e place was better den i tot .. tot it'll be like cement floors grey buildings n all .. but it's quite colourful .. den got tile flooring .. since e DJ from Power 98 were there .. decided to make a dedication for kor .. "haha... u're in but i'm not .. hav fun .. =]" .. but haven heard it yet .. either i missed it or it'll be on later .. thier food wasnt tt bad .. e water arnd was really nice n clear ..anyway 2 wks will be gone in a blink of an eye ..

no mood to blog le .. ciaos

hey hey .. i'm back .. missed me? ..haha .. finally know wat naruwan means .. it's a qing ge ..

DAY 1

reached taipei in e aftnoon .. it was raining so heavily .. not fair e immigration officer ask me if i tourist ... how many days i stayin .. where i stayin .. i was like 6 days .. i oso donno where i stayin .. i goin round e whole of taiwan lei .. everyday change hotel .. how i know .... was pourin cats n dogs ..but e best part was eating from e noodle shop outside our hotel to e dessert shop all e way to xi men ding could believe we ate so much .. seemed tt sun xie zhi was doin some filmin there tt day .. din get to c him .. argh ... anyway took e mrt .. wanted to 'visit' taipei 101 but was too heavy rain so back we went .. hated e room .. so small ..

DAY 2

travellin to ye liu .. had to wake up at 6 in e morn juz to eat some bleagh tastin porridge n food .. but hav to say .. e view was great ... worth e cold n wakin up so early .. headed to chiufen din go in e temple tho .. had black boar susage .. yummy =] .. headed to Ami Aboroginal Cultural Village .. e show was quite nice lar .. but din know wat was goin on most of e time .. .lolx

DAY 3

headed to taroko gorge .. e marbles are so nice .. tho e stream was muddy due to e rain u could still c some clear spots .. really nice n blue .. went to e linzi n tea center .. how could anyone eat dear foetus .. yucks.. they kept pushin e lingzi .. so much for no obligations to buy .. den was our 7 hr journey to kaohsiung .. goodness it's slightly lesser den e time i spend a wk .. watched some vcd .. din know fei yu qing was so colour n e way he laugh is so gay .. haha .. wat's new? .. Sin Jiao Jiang Night market was ok lar .. 2 streets onli ..

DAY 4

saw e Spring & Autumn Pavillions .. ok lar .. not of my interest .. more of buddhism stuff ... went to Chi Lin Fong Hot Spring . .but din try e hot spring .. kindda funny lar ... everyone in one piece n me n 2 .. tummy too fat oso ..haha .. Fong Jia Night market at tai chung was ok lar .. din seem like one at all ... saw ppl wif pet pigs .. so cute .. they seem to like dogs n pigs .. e babies they sold were really cute ..

DAY 5

from tai chung to taipei wasnt tt bad coz e journey wasnt as long .. headed to Mao's princess home .. tried to sell us they royal jelly .. but mom n dad wont buy .. of course lar .. they juz spend thousand plus on pearl powder e day b4 .. but ok lar .. we had lots more thrown in n 2 black pearl bracelet .. else mom wont buy .. headed to C.KS Memorial Hall .. did know wat was goin on again .. oh ya .. saw e changin of guards at Martyr's shrine .. smthin like e one in london .. went on to National Palace Museum .. boring ... ditto for Miramar shoppin Mall . .but their ferries wheel was huge .. aft all it's e 2nd biggest in e world .. ShiLin Night Market was e best . .but alas . not enough time .. e strawberries were nice .. saw e vendors playing hide n seek wif e police .. haha .. aft tt headed to another night market near our hotel on our own .. accidently stumbled into e red light area .. haha .. but was nice lar .. bought lots of food back to hac a feast .. saw them kill e snakes .. gross man .. e snake was still movin tho it had a long slit n it's intestines hangin out .. e hotel was e best .. we had e presidential suite .. hah a.. e other days werent tt bad lar .. e rooms were bigger n we had e ones for 4 person

overall e journey was tirin but hey ... it was fun .. tho i wished i went b4 we did our project .. oh well .. hah a.. oh ya sam .. there was this old lady who look like e old witch from Howl's .. really cute .. will update e photo soon .. hah a.. gtg catch up on my slp .. ciaos all .. *muacks